Tuesday, February 24, 2009

Insert [Name] here...

Dear [Name],
I hate your stinkin' guts. You make me vomit. You are the scum between my toes.
[Your Name]

Sunday, February 22, 2009

Sunday Evening Post...

Today in Relief Society we discussed Thomas S Monson's talk, FINDING JOY IN THE JOURNEY. One thought that has frequented my mind over the past month is enjoying the NOW. If I'm not happy now, I won't be happy later. It doesn't work that way. Happiness and joy are found internally...not to be confused with the external influences that bring superficial comfort that frequently substitutes itself for pure happiness and joy. In light of that thought...these are a few things that helped me have a good day today.
-a new skirt
-multigrain saltines
-the smell of fresh cilantro
-my nephew's smile
-chatting with my grandmother
-pure testimony
-good music
-musical clips
-taking notes
-the basics: faith, repentance, baptism, the Holy Ghost, enduring to the end, etc
Really, "men are that they might have joy." It is a gift for all of us, if we are willing to search for it. I'm ready for the treasure hunt of a lifetime.

Monday, February 16, 2009

for mom...

the other day i was chatting with my mother and she asked me why all my blog posts are posted near midnight. i told her i use it to wind down at night. it's the truth. this one is for you mom. i took nyquil 2 hours ago and am now settling in for a blissful sleep with my vicks vaporizer. sweet dreams...

Thursday, February 12, 2009

single somethin' or other...

Starting in the middle of January, a series of events have prepared me for the glorious day of February 14, 2009. Lessons, talks, books, conversations...all have tried to influence me to have a positive experience with St. Valentine's Day this year, and frankly-I'm amused by it. I get the feeling that society is concerned by my attitude toward the celebration of such holidays. Last night while, I was trying to fall asleep, I went over some of my most memorable Valentine's Days in my lifetime: a) 5th grade. We made our own boxes. I sliced my finger open while scoring the posterboard for my secret crush's box. Still have the scar; b) Rexburg. I remember standing in one of the most beautiful snowfalls I've ever seen and nearly crying because there was SO MUCH snow and I was severely lacking in Vitamin D. Also, had my first quality experience with NyQuil. Went to Wal-Mart for the supply and went home to bed. Missed my roommate dancing at half-time of the basketball game, but was pleasantly surprised when two very dear friends showed up with a Valentine/Get Well card and a box of chocolates. Still have the card. c) Last year. I had a short day at work and went home to have my own little "single-awareness" evening. Instead I went to visit my brother and help him clean his house for his first Valentine's Day with his wife. I stood there and felt the first of a series of heart-breaks that helped me to realize (once again) that the Lord is in charge and it all works in HIS timetable. Later that night my brother and sister-in-law showed up with a flower for me. I felt loved to say the least.
This year I choose to find people who love me or need my love and spend time with them. It doesn't have to be a "single-awareness" day. I just watched SOME LIKE IT HOT. I don't think it gets much more appropriate...love, flowers, pretty girls, St Valentine's Day massacre, Chicago mafia, Jack Lemmon and Tony Curtis in drag, Osgood-land. What is there NOT to love about this movie? It's a classic. There is so much to be learned from Sugar's attraction to tenor sax players even though she KNOWS that they are nothing but trouble. And then there are always Osgood's famous last words, "nobody's perfect." This year, I choose to accept that thought/concept and embrace the fact that nobody is perfect and I look forward to St Valentine's Day with something like unto optimism. Go team. Don't let me down...

Tuesday, February 10, 2009


In all reality, this is not the first post I have written called "denial". In all reality, it probably won't be the last either. The first was a response to the past week in which I really decided that most of the world lives in denial. It was illustrated by points taken from recent film (ie THE BUCKET LIST and HE'S JUST NOT IN TO YOU) and recent experiences from my life and the lives around me, but then reality hit me. MY BEDROOM LOOKS LIKE A NUCLEAR TORNADO HIT IT!!! I realized it is because I have partially finished projects ALL over the room. It is literally ridiculous. This is the conclusion that I have come to. If my mother were to see it, she would ground me. In the spirit of my mother (because I do love her), I have officially grounded myself until my bedroom looks like a real person lives there. If that entails re-arranging furniture, so be it. Something has got to change. Denial is no longer acceptable. I am embracing reality.

Thursday, February 5, 2009

the never ending awkwardness...

remember larry? he's married now. (way to keep the commitment!) his wife came with him to his appointment today. (yay for the happy couple!) now, as the receptionist, i do a lot of "filtering". management doesn't always want to to talk to EVERY patient that walks in. i was a bit surprised when larry's wife stephanie (name once again altered for hippa compliance) walked right up to me and asked to speak with the office manager. i asked her what it was in regard to and she told me that she had heard that we were hiring and was interested in applying for a job. REALLY!!! can my life get any more awkward? oh wait...shouldn't have asked that question. i just cursed myself. someday i'll learn, right? i'm pretty sure that this is some higher power's way of keeping me humble. yay me. i'll learn someday.

Sunday, February 1, 2009


1) I don't like fish, but I do like sushi.
2) I was on the Math Team in high school.
3) I love Utah sunrises and Nebraska sunsets.
4) I graduated from college in English and did not read another book for 3 years.
5) I tend to over analyze things…to the point that my father (the straight-faced courtroom attorney) told me that I suck the fun out of things.
6) I hated everything about the great outdoors until I was 18.
7) I never wanted to learn Spanish.
8) I am perpetually lazy.
9) I write with my left hand to make myself stay awake.
10) Currently, my greatest fear is chronic pain.
11) I have worn the same pajamas since 2002. LOVE SCRUBS!!!
12) I am totally and completely fascinated by the human body-but not enough to study medicine.
13) Since I graduated from college my attention span has decreased exponentially.
14) I run without music.
15) I have a memory bank full of useless trivia.
16) I am a copy artist. I rarely have an original idea.
17) I don’t drink soda and don’t really eat candy-my body hates me when I do.
18) I have a freakish memory.
19) I knew who Frank Sinatra was before I knew who Tom Cruise was.
20) In 3rd grade I was voted most studious.
21) I broke the same elbow twice in less than one year.
22) I’d rather sleep than eat—but the more tired I am, the more I fight going to sleep.
23) I have paid for one hair cut in the past 6 years.
24) I have plans to see the Pacific and Atlantic coasts before Mother’s Day.
25) I have no idea who is playing in the Super Bowl.