Saturday, August 29, 2009

so i live with my grandmother. my friends have been mildly concerned about me because i've seen far too many rogers and hammerstein musical as of late. let's be honest here, they're quality entertainment but not always appreciated in 2009. i'd like to make the announcement that we have branched out this evening. tonight we're watching LIFE WITH FATHER. i'm only half paying attention, but i have been highly amused by 2 things:
1) 15 year old elizabeth taylor. she announced that she plays the piano and coyly asks the yale man if he "plays duets" with his violin. i'd forgotten she was ever that young.
2) the new york financier clarence day asks "why did god make so many fools and democrats!?!" as he read the morning paper. ha! i wonder what he'd have to say about socialized medicine.

Monday, August 24, 2009

remember the poll?

a conclusion has been reached. just booked a caribbean cruise. i feel pretty good about that. i feel even better about the fact that i booked it for JANUARY!!! i predict that i will love my life in january, however, i just may hate myself in february. we'll see...

Sunday, August 23, 2009

lessons from little boys

1) I was home a few months ago on a fast Sunday. One little boy got up to share his testimony and said "I'd like to bear my testimony that my parents have faith in me". I've been thinking a lot about that over the past few months. I think I'd like to say the same.

2) Apparently, when my father was a pre-teen his family drove across the country for a family vacation. This was pre-air conditioning. They bought blocks of ice, stuck them in pans, and drove to Washington, DC with their feet on ice blocks.

3) While at church meetings today, I noticed a boy 2 rows ahead of me trying to wait patiently for the meeting to start. He quietly pulled out his notebook and pen and then after his dad (who was ushering) left, he pulled a handfull of little green army men out of his pocket and lined them up on the arm of the bench. At the same time, the choir was singing chorus of "The Spirit of God" and the "armies of heaven" have never been so real. The boy's father returned and the army men were forced back into the pocket, but image will always be there.

Friday, August 21, 2009

pulling out all stops...

I know. What exactly does that mean? I have an answer. Approximately 12 years ago I took organ lessons with my mother and brother. Pipe organs use "stops" in the pipes to change the pitch, tone, and quality of the sound. "Pulling out all the stops" lets ALL the air go through: full effort, no restrictions.
This is how I'm currently feeling. New life: full effort, no restrictions, HOLDING BACK NOTHING. For the 5 of you that read this that are not family members, a little back ground-I have just moved in with my grandmother. Now, what exactly does that mean? I'll tell you what that means. That means I'm still working at the good old doctor's office. It means I live in a blissfully quiet neighborhood with very few distractions so that theoretically I could study for the GRE and go back to school like I've wanted for the past few years. THEORETICALLY being the key word there. Approximately 5 times over the past week, I've had the same conversation with my mother (bless her for listening) about the education that I'm currently receiving. I can't take classes on this and there isn't a college out there that will give me credit for what I'm currently learning. But I have decided that there is merit to the "all your heart, might, mind, and strength" concept. It's not an inverse relationship: the more I give, the more I get.
For example: My relationship with my grandmother.
When I was 19-20 I heard, "I was married by the time I was your age" for the first time. When I was 20, she told my parents she'd give me $5 just to smile at a boy. I'm not an overly social person and I'm okay with that. I'm happy the way I am. I have, however, always felt mildly inadequate in comparison to my cousins who are married or always dating someone, and because of that have kept my social life/calendar completely underground when it comes to Grandma. Now, the whole moving in with Grandma part...this is where it gets (or could get) highly complicated. I could keep myself completely secretive/reclusive, or I could talk to her. I was talking to a friend about the move and he reminded me what a blessing it could be because of all the things I could learn from her. Taking his advice, I've pulled out all stops and have had some great conversations with my grandmother that I wouldn't change for anything. She is a truly great woman and she has some pretty intense trials coming her way, but at the same time, this is my chance to give back to her-thank her for all the things she has done for me and my family. It's not an easy move. Old people a quirky and set in their ways, but let be honest here, I am too. The trick is serve selflessly, pulling all the stops, and the blessings will come at the same ratio.

Tuesday, August 18, 2009


so i just had a genius realization or maybe two or three...
1) my youngest neighbor is at least 55. (bless the retiree's HOA.)
2) i've made the big move from the crazy college town drivers to the world of semi-oblivious old people in assault vehicles also known as grandma cars.
3) time is relative thereby creating a relative 4th dimension. my 4th dimension is completely dependent upon other people. current game plan: create my own 4th dimension.

Sunday, August 16, 2009


I'm pretty sure that is the best adjective I can come up for this one, however "intense", "sick", and "enough to kill a person" may be close runners up. Check THIS out.

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

paganism at it's finest.

the stars finally aligned themselves and god blessed me.

i know. highly ironic statement. maybe it was because i just had a shakespearean weekend, or maybe it has something to do with the meteorshower, but this is a thought that crossed my mind at work today when for some reason everything managed to work itself out in the last 10 minutes just before i left. not going to lie, it happens regularly. it's something that i learned on my mission. one conference pte faulkner talked to us about nephi going forward not knowing beforehand what he was going to do. so he didn't know what they were going to do-it wasn't for a lack of trying. he had tried plan a, b, c, d, etc before he fell to the "not knowing" plan. it's just living proof of the concept of "after ALL we can do" the lord picks up the rest and for that, i'm eternally grateful.

Monday, August 10, 2009

above all have a good time!

while in DC earlier this year i saw julia child's kitchen. it was kind of a cool place and really more than anything, i enjoyed some of the quotes they had listed for her. ABOVE ALL HAVE A GOOD TIME! is the one i needed more that anything because i really don't seem to enjoy my time in the kitchen, but the quote that amused me more than anything was I'M A KNIFE FREAK and now i know that they weren't stainless steel. after having "one of those days" i found myself discussing my current diet with my dietitian, she recommended 2 things: good quality dark chocolate and JULIE AND JULIA. it sounded like a viable recommendation so i went along with it. after a quick trip to good earth, we each walked into the movie theater with a bar of dark chocolate with cacao and chili pepper. i've never had a better combination.
about julie: i'm inspired to cook and to blog. i can relate to the late-20-something-year-old holding down a second-rate job that is paying the bills, cobb salad lunches (however mine seem to come more in the form of jamba juice and ice cream runs), and the simple life leaving her yearning for a deadline and not knowing exactly how to go about it.
about julia: i knew absolutely nothing about her story before the movie, but it fascinates me. good for her. heels, cooking school, rejections, mccarthy trials, and all...that woman needed a change and made her own opportunities.
i'd like to think it inspired a change in my life. we tried for an impulse buy at barnes and noble, but it was not to MASTERING THE ART OF FRENCH COOKING was not to be found and secretly i was glad. (i'm not so sure that i'm really into french cooking and i don't want to go through 368 recipes in 365 days). i did find something similar-JULIA'S KITCHEN WISDOM: Essential Techniques and Recipes from a Lifetime of Cooking. i considered that a worthy substitution. i'm okay with JUST the essentials. perhaps one day, i'll bone a duck, but i don't know that i see that in the near future. my first goal is ABOVE ALL HAVE A GOOD TIME! and i plan on taking it one step at a time. wish me luck!

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

it's news to me...

so i was on the phone with an insurance company yesterday and tina, the woman i was speaking with, shared with me a piece of information that i somehow hadn't learned before...
apparently KISS has a song named "shandi"
i don't currently have internet access with a computer with speakers, so an analysis of the lyrics will have to do for now. this is what i came up with.
who would have ever guessed that KISS had a song with my name in it? and not just any song-but a LOVE song!?! i had no idea that KISS even did love songs. apparently i inspire tranquility and love. there you go...