Wednesday, September 30, 2009

sweaters and chamomile...

Today is the day that I choose to find good in the fact that there is snow in the mountains and I have a GIANT mosquito bite on my left shin. I'm sitting here trying to not eat an entire pound of almonds as I wait for a fabulous dinner with friends that I don't see nearly enough. It's the last day of September. It snowed in the mountains and rained in the valley and I celebrated it with a cup of bliss (tomato basil soup) and fresh bread sticks. Not all of my tomatoes ripened before the weather turned cold so I am toying with the concept of "fried green tomatoes"-is it really more than a film and an actual edible concoction that can provide nourishment? Love, in it's 4 greatest forms, fills my life and I choose to appreciate it. I also choose turtleneck sweaters, warm fleecy jackets, and hot chamomile tea before delving into my favorite books that are physical proof that I have a spiritual father who loves me. Everyday as I left home for school, my mother said goodbye with "Make it a good day!" Today, inadvertently, I did.

Sunday, September 20, 2009

chocolate cookies please!

I don't really know how to start this, so I'll say this...It's been an interesting week. My grandfather passed away this morning. I think for all of us, it's been a slightly surreal experience and I'm grateful that my family has been here for the bulk of it. I haven't had to go through it alone. My parents have been here and my aunt has been here. I've had some great conversations with my aunt that could easily lead me directly to grad school in the near future. (Yay for direction!) In the midst of it all, we had a discussion that went something like this:
Aunt Dorice: If anyone asks if there is anything that they can do...tell them to bring chocolate cookies.
Me: Okay...?
Aunt Dorice: We have plenty of food here. People will offer to bring meals. Tell them we need comfort food. Chocolate cookies.
Me: Alright. Right. Well, we're making banana bread. We'll put chocolate chips in it.
Aunt Dorice: That'll do, but we could still use chocolate cookies.
Me: Okay.
[A few minutes passed and the rest of the family entered the room and conversation.]
[knock at the door]

Neighbor: Hello-I was wondering how you are all doing?
Unspecified Family Member: Oh, it's been a long day...
Neighbor: Well...I was wondering if I could interest you in a pie.
[laughter from all family members]
Me: SHE GOT THE MEMO!!!
It was a rhubarb pie. It was FABULOUS! Loved it.
Now. Re-reading this, I would like to clarify two things: 1) My aunt is NOT obsessive when it comes to chocolate cookies. My family has a very healthy appreciation (can I use that word?)for chocolate cookies. 2) I have a heightened appreciation for family and the plan of salvation. As tired as I have been for the past 2 weeks, there has been an INCREDIBLE peace in our home. I know that I'll see my grandfather again. I know that he is happy and with other friends and family members who welcomed him with his own version of "well done-thou good and faithful servant."

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

I don't know.

I don't understand.
Afrikaans - Ek verstaan nie
Albanian - Nuk kuptoj
Alsatian - Ich versteh nitt
Amharic - አልገባኝም
Arabic(Egyptian) - (ana miš fāhim) أنا مش فاهم
Arabic(Modern Standard) - (lā afham) لا أفهم
Arabic(Moroccan) - (mafhemtš) مافهمتش
Arabic(Syrian) - (māfhemit) مافهمت
Aragonese - No repleco
Arapaho - neihoowóé'in
Armenian - (Eastern) Չեմ հասկանում: (Chem haskanum)
Aromanian - Nu acãchisescu
Asante - Menté asé
Asturian - Nun pescancio
Azerbaijani - Mən sizi başa düşmürəm
Basque - Ez dut ulertzen
Belarusian - Не разумею (Ne razumeyu)
Bengali - বুঝতে পারি নি। (bujhte pari ni)
বুঝতে পারলাম না। (bujhte parlam na)
Bosnian - Ne razumijem
Breton - Ne gomprenan ket [ne gɔ̃mpʁenãn ket]
Bulgarian - Не разбирам (Ne razbiram)
Cape Verdean - N ka ta konprende
Catalan - No ho entenc
Chamorro - Ti hu komprende
Chechen - Со ца кхита (So ca qiet)
Cherokee - ᏝᎢᎪᎵᎦ (tlaigoliga)
Chinese(Cantonese) - 我唔明白 (ngóh m̀ mìhngbaahk)
Chinese(Hakka) - 𠊎唔明白 (ngai2 mm mingpakh)
Chinese(Mandarin) - 我聽不懂 [我听不懂] (wǒ tīngbùdǒng)
我不懂 (wǒ bùdǒng)
我不明白 (wǒ bù míngbai)
Chinese(Taiwanese) - 我聽無 gua2 thian-bo0
Choctaw - Ak akostinincho
Comanche - Ke nu u nakisupana?itu
Cornish - Nu gonvedhas / Ne ellam convethas
Corsican - Ùn capiscu micca
Croatian - Ne razumijem
Czech - Nerozumím
Danish - Det forstår jeg ikke
Dutch - Ik begrijp het niet
Dyula - Né ta mé
Esperanto - Mi ne komprenas [mi ne kom'prenas]
Estonian - Ma ei saa aru
Faroese - Eg skilji ikki
Fijian - E sega ni macala
Finnish - En ymmärrä [ɛn 'ymːærːæ]
French - Je ne comprends pas [ʒə nə cõ'pʁɑ̃ 'pa]
Frisian (North)- Ik begrip dåt ai
Frisian (Saterfrisian) - Iek begriep dät nit
Frisian (West) - Ik begryp it net
Friulian - No capiš un dret!
Galician - Nom entendo
German - Ich verstehe nicht [ɪç fə'ʃteːə nɪçt]
Georgian - არ მესმის (ar mesmis)
Greek - Δεν καταλαβαίνω (Then katalavéno)
Greenlandic - Paasinngilara
Guarani - Ndaikuaái la ereséva
Gujarati - સમજણ પટતી નથી (samajaṇa paṭatī nathī)
Haitian - Creole Mwen pa komprann
Hawaiian - Maopopo iaʻu ʻole
Hebrew m - (ani loh mevin) אני לא מבין
f - (ani loh mevinah) אני לא מבינה
Hindi - m मैं समझ नहीं पा रहा हूँ। (Maiṁ samajh nahṁ pā rahā hūṁ)
f मैं समझ नहीं पा रही हूँ। (Maiṁ samajh nahṁ pā rahī hūṁ)
Hmong - Kuv tsis to-taub, Kuv tsis meej pem li
Hungarian - Nem értem
Icelandic - Ég skil það ekki
Indonesian - Saya tidak mengerti
Inuktitut - ᑐᑭᓯᓐᖏᑦᑐᖕ (Tukisinngittung)
Irish (Gaelic) - Ní thuigim Cha dtuigim (Ulster)
Italian - Non capisco Non ho capito
Italian (Roman dialect) - Nun capisco
Japanese - わかりません (wakarimasen)
わからない (wakaranai) - informal
Javanese - kulo mboten mangertos
Jèrriais - Jé n'comprends pon
Karelian - Minä en ellendä
Kashubian - Jô nie rozmiejã
Kazakh - Мен түсінбеймін (Men tüsinbeymin)
Khmer - (kh'nyohm muhn yuhl te)
Kinyarwanda - Sinumva
Kiribati - I aki oota
Klingon - jIyajbe'
Komi - Ме тіянӧс ог гӧгӧрво (Me tîǎnös og gögörvo)
Korean - 모르겠습니다 (moreugesseumnida)
Kurdish - تێ ناگه م
Kyrgyz - Түшүнбөдүм (Tüšünbödüm)
Lao - ບໍ່ເຂົ້າໃຈ (baw khào ja̖i)
Latin - Nullo intellego / Nescio
Latvian - Es nesaprotu
Limburgish - Ich versjtaon neet, Ich begriep 't neet
Lingala - Na zali kososola té
Lithuanian - Aš nesuprantu
Livonian - Ma äb so aru
Lojban - mi na jimpe
Luganda - Ssitegeera
Luxembourgish - Ech verstinn net
Macedonian - Не разбирам (Ne razbiram)
Malagasy - Tsy azoko
Malay - Saya tidak faham
Maltese - M'inix nifhem / Mhux qiegħed nifhem / Ma nifhimx / Mhux nifhem
Manx - Cha nel mee toiggal
Māori - Kaore au e mārama / Aroha mai
Marathi - मला नाही समजत (malā nāhī samjat)
Mauritian - Creole Mo pas compran
Mohawk - Iah tewake'nikonhraien:ta's
Mongolian - Би ойлгохгүй байна (Bi oilgokhgui baina)
Mordvin - Мон тынк а чаркодян (Mon tynk a čarkodǎn)
Nenets - Ман’ сит нидм’ хамадамбю’ (Man’ sit nidm’ hamadambǔ’)
Nepali - मैले बुझिन (maile bujhina)
Norwegian - Jeg skjønner ikke / Jeg forstår ikke (Bokmål)
Eg forstår ikkje (Nynorsk)
Nyanja - Sindinamve
Occitan - Compreni pas
Pashto - زه پوه نه شوم
Persian - (nemifahmam) نمي فهمم (motevajjeh nemisham) متوجه نميشم
Polish - Nie rozumiem
Portuguese - Não percebo/compreendo (Portugal)
Eu não estou entendendo, Não entendi (Brazil)
Punjabi - ਮੈਂ ਨਹੀਂ ਸਮਝਦਾ (maiṅ hīṅ samajhadā)
Quechua - Mana japikkana
Quenya - umin hanyan
Romanian - Nu înţeleg
Romany - Či hačarav
Russian - Я не понимаю (Ya ne ponimaju)
Saami - Mun in ádde
Samoan - Ou te le malama lama
Sardianian - Non lu cumprendo
Scots - A dinna unnerstaund, A dinna lift
Scottish Gaelic - Chan eil mi 'tuigsinn
Serbian - Не разумем (Ne razumem)
Sesotho - Ha ke utlwisise
Shona - Handisi kunyaso nzwisisa
Sindarin - ú-chenian
Slovak - Nerozumiem
Slovenian - Ne razumem
Somali - Maan fahmin
Spanish - No entiendo No comprendo
Stellingwarfs - Ik begriep 't niet
Swahili - Sifahamu
Swazi - Angiva
Swedish - Jag förstår inte
Tagalog - Hindí ko náiintindihan
Tahitian - Aita i papu ia'u
Tamil - புரியவில்லை (puriyavillai)
Tajik - Ман намефаҳмам (Man namefaḩmam)
Tatar - Min añlamin
Telugu - నాకు అర్ధం కాలేదు ! – (naaku ardhaṅ kaalaedhu!)
Tetum - Ha'u la hatene
Thai - ไม่เข้าใจ (mâi khâo jai)
Tibetan - ཧ་གོ་མ་སོང་། (ha ko-masong)
Tigrinya - ኣይተረድኣንን (ayteredann)
Tongan - 'Oku 'ikai mahino kiate au
Tsez - Ди бич1зи рохъхāну (Di bičʼzi roqxānu)
Tswana - Ga ke tlhaloganye
Turkish - Anlamıyorum, Anlamadım
Turkmen - Мен дүшүнемок (Men düšünemok)
Udmurt - Мыным валантем (Mynym valantem)
Ukrainian - Я не розумію (Ja ne rozumiju)
Urdu - (main samjha nahin [m] / main samjhi nahin [f]) میں سمجھا نہی
Uzbek - Men tushunmayapman (frm)
Vietnamese - Tôi không hiểu
Volapük - No kapälob
Votic - Minä en eľgenda
Welsh - Dw i ddim yn deall
Xhosa - Andiva
Yiddish - (Ikh farshtey dos nit) איך פֿאַרשטיי דאָס ניט
Yorùbá - Ko ye emi
Zulu - Angizwa
And if you ask me in five minutes, my answer will not have changed.

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

I'm not apathetic.

If I were, I wouldn't work as hard as I do.

Saturday, September 12, 2009

Things to do...

I'm a list person. I always have been. I have never done really well with a planner. I've had them, but inevitabley, they get lost or substituted for wall full of sticky notes. One year at school I created a calendar on the wall above my bed, each day of the month was an 8x10 sheet of paper and I just kept lists on each day of things that needed to be done that day. Even now, there is an on going list in my mind at all times, for example:
The Parents List for Utah:
1) Snow shoes
2) Scissors
3) Sewing machine oil
4) Anchors Away (is that the one?)
Things I'd like to cook someday:
1) Crab Cakes
2) Sum Tom
3) Floating Island
Places I'd like to Visit:
1) Denver
2) Seattle
3) New York
4) Lincoln
5) Chile
I had a realization last week. This list fettish makes my college experience make so much more sense. I have a degree in English and because of that people just assume that I want to be a writer. To be completely honest, I don't want to be a writer. I studied English so I could be a reader and an analyzer, not a writer. I've never felt like I had a good explanation as to why, but I think I might have done it. I don't think in smooth coherent statements. I never really did. Ask Quinton. (He was a friend of mine in undergrad that was on a one-man crusade to perfect my transitions-he may have almost succeeded in my senior capstone project.) I think in horribly disjointed ideas that rarely relate to each other. Lists are the easiest way to connect these ideas. Stack them on top of each other and throw in a bunch of bullet points and they don't have to flow nicely-they're not supposed to. IT'S A LIST FOR PETE'S SAKE!!!
Having stated that, here's my to do list for today:
1) run
2) clean off spare bed
3) laundry
4) clean off cedar chest
5) catch up on my reading
6) take a nap
7) enrichment
That's about it...wish me luck.

Monday, September 7, 2009

I woke up at 7:30 this morning in a mad panic that I was going to be late for work. I then remmembered that is Labor Day. Yay for a good holiday!

Sunday, September 6, 2009

thoughts..

i had a friend give me some homework for a sunday afternoon. i'll always accept sunday afternoon homework. i was told to read 2 talks from general conference: 1) faith in adversity by rafael e pino, and 2) temple worship: the source of strength and power in times of need by richard g scott. loved both talks. here are my thoughts on both, (broken as they may be...)
faith through adversity, taking us to the temple where we make covenants and receive more strength enabling us to face more adversity, etc. in e' scott's talk, he discussed the death of his son and stated: "but we had faith in our heavenly father, and we put our trust in him feeling that we were his chosen people and had embraced his gospel, instead of sorrow, we felt to rejoice that the day of our deliverance had come." what's the difference between his usage of 'faith' and 'trust'? is there a difference between the two or are they interchangeable? i've also always been a HUGE fan of his view of trials, "i have never asked why but rather what is it that he wants me to learn from this experience." (almost to the point that is has been called my soap box.) as far as the temple itself goes...i love the place. it brings me great joy, and more than that, peace. i was talking to someone (really, now, i have absolutely no idea who it was) whose goal it was to go to the temple just often enough that it was inconvenient-that way it was still some sort of sacrifice. e' pino's talk hit one of my favorite scriptures, "peace i leave with you, my peace i give unto you: not as the world giveth, give i unto you. let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid". given, i've never lost a 3-year-old daughter, but it goes back to e' scott's theory, 'what can i learn from this?' if we accept the lord's will and his help, he won't leave us alone. it's all up to us, "if our lives and our faith are centered on jesus christ and his restored gospel, nothing can ever go permanently wrong. on the other hand, if our lives are not centered on the savior and his teachings, no other success can ever be permanently right." gotta love pte hunter. there's something about prophetic insight.
now you've had some williams insight. take it for what it's worth.

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

my happy thoughts for the day...

2 nights ago I made a genius discovery. Finally, after 2 years of patiently waiting, I found a Jimmy John's less than 45 minutes away from my house. In fact, it is less than 4 minutes away from my place of employment. I went there for lunch today and declared myself as "perfectly content" for the rest of the day. Really, I haven't had a complaint yet. I did make on observation as I was walking out to my car today. I take so many things for granted.
*2 years ago I moved here absolutely thrilled by the mountains. I realized today that it has been weeks since I actually looked at them.
*Central Air and Heat. I will forever be grateful for my water heater. Chile cured me of that. I have to keep reminding myself that the AC is a blessing as I shiver in my 50 degree windowless office.
*My cell phone. I can talk to anyone, anytime I want.(As long as they answer.)
*The plan of salvation. Wow. Life is literally less painful with a knowledge that death is a temporary separation-nothing more.
*I have good friends in half of the fifty states and on a few continents. That gives me make-shift beds on floors in lots of locations in the case that I catch cabin fever.
*Speaking of cabin fever (or not at all), I hear we've had some fabulous weather as of late. I'd like to appreciate it more.
*I can stand up, sit down, walk, run, climb stairs, and sleep on concrete without feeling pain. My body really doesn't hate me.
I am so blessed and now resolve to NOT take it all for granted.