Thankful Sunday...thoughts

So I missed last week. I thought about it as I was laying in bed trying to fall asleep last week, but I didn't do anything about it. I was trying really hard to get myself back on a sleep schedule after being sick. It kind of worked. Not really. I think it's going to take a while for me to kick this cold.
This week I am thankful for quiet moments that allow me to recognize miracles, blessings, and opportunities.
I've been meeting with a therapist trying to work through some things that have happened at work over that past few years. One thing that we discussed this week was the fact that a lot of people have a hard time just being quiet. They can't sit by themselves and be still. Phones come out bringing a world of distraction and people are so happy to be lost in the discontent otherwise known as the internet. The question that started this conversation was "what would make you happy right now?" That's not a hard or loaded question at all. It's been on my mind. A LOT. I don't know if I have a good or perfect answer, but there are small things that I have been incorporating in my life that have helped a lot.  I have sewed 2 baby blankets and 2 quilts this year. I have been reading a lot more than I have in my more recent past. (I think I'm up to 10 books this year so far.) I've been coloring? That's new for me, but it's been nice.
I've been re-evaluating what makes me happy, where I currently am, and where I want to be. I think the thing that I have realized is that until I make myself a priority, no one else will. No one can tell me what will make me happy. No one will tell me to do the things that will make me happy. I have to do this myself.  Reading this makes me feel like I am not exactly an optimistic or happy person. I am. I have prided that quality in myself for a long time. I am learning that there are multiple kinds of optimism.  The optimism that I know is finding good in the world around me.  I'm good at that. I've learned to see miracles everywhere. The optimism that I am learning is to create my own. I can be the master of my destiny. I can act. I can create. I don't have to wait and find beauty. I can make it.